CONTENT AND HAPPY IN THE UNIVERSE

There's No Shadow You Won't Light Up

Sitting cozy in my hospital room, the harmattan wind caressing my skin, surrounded by awesome health workers, lost in thoughts after strolling through the streets of Twitter. I can't help but reflect on how thoroughly blessed I am - especially with some experiences of past year that shaped me for a better person, the emotional wounds, still I have so much to be thankful for - sober reflection is therapeutical. 

My life is a testimony and I am pleased to still be here - a week ago, I was in the O.R in space of 5 hours with my loved ones wondering why it was taking long for me to be out, uncomfortable experience of sitting in the surgical waiting room in solidarity and support for me to complete a procedure, as the nurses kept breezing in and out with all anxiety of hearing anticipated news. Most of my hospital experience has been on the “other side” of the restricted area. 

However, on the patient and family side, time crawled and the hands on the clock seemed to be stuck in place. My sister fretted, eavesdropped at the surgical ward door out of restlessness with possible scenarios running through her mind and how life would be different if a serious complication occurred. Well, here I am hale, hearty and in one piece after so many traumatizing experiences - the wait was rewarded by preservation of a life. Private wins are the sweetest. No one may know the depth of the struggle you have been in, but your victory is tremendous.

The storms are inevitable. The stress is optional. Thankful for 2022 and gearing up for the year 2023 and all the sparkling and some sour experiences that will be encountered - Being a realist has always taught me one thing 'Life is not always a bed of roses'. I feel overwhelmed, and I am sure going to make this year count. If you're not living in awe, then you're not paying attention. Worry is a weight you don't have to carry. Release it. 

Isn't it crazy how angry and bitter someone can get with you because you picked your peace over their drama? It's okay if you got tired of explaining yourself. Choose peace always.

Never fail to realize that you are stronger than you think you are, understanding that the greatest power lie inside you, apprehending that life is happening for you and not to you, believing that God will never leave you nor forsake you.

Growth can require different things at different seasons. Sometimes, it can mean just breathing and in quietude.

“I just want to laugh and spend money” has never been misunderstood.

Don't assume those who are quiet are empty, blank with nothing to offer. We are reflecting, imagining, observing, creating, writing, deconstructing, building, healing, growing, becoming. When we are ready, we speak.

Nnennaya, the JOY of the Lord is your strength.

Note to Self: You've done amazing.

Note To Self: New seasons require a new strength. That strength needs to be developed and it's being developed in you NOW.

Note To Self: May your experience the kind of love that helps you breathe, expand, grow, and bloom. You deserve it.